Some before and after, I love the most. And here is what I never wanted to share……
The Weight of Expectations
There was a time when I constantly felt the pressure to prove that I mattered.
The pressure of society. The opinions of people. The expectations of others. And, perhaps the heaviest of all, my own expectations and some unfortunate situations.
Slowly, I lost myself.
Losing Confidence and Identity
Once a bright, confident student who loved learning. And somewhere along the journey, I became someone who feared standing on a stage, feared speaking up, and feared being judged.
Constant judgment, comparison, and criticism existed everywhere. I tried to adjust. I tried to fit in. I hid my emotions because I thought being strong meant staying silent.
Years passed.
I kept believing that nothing around me was changing and I can deal with it.
But something was changing, that I never imagined.
It was me.
The worst part of trauma is that it remains hidden in your own body and starts to manifest slowly.
When the Body Speaks the Pain
I slowly began to lose my confidence. I started feeling fear everywhere. I feared meeting people. My body started speaking the pain that my mind had been carrying for years.
Then came the physical symptoms.
😢Loss of appetite.
😢Constant headaches.
😢Vomiting.
😢Severe menstrual pain.
😢Chronic bowel issues.
😢Continuous dysentery.
😢Difficulty travelling
😢Constant Fatigue
After countless tests and consultations, I was diagnosed with
🌵Severe depression,
🌵Anxiety,
🌵Panic Attacks,
🌵IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome),
🌵Migraine,
🌵Hormonal Imbalance,
🌵Thyroid Disorder,
🌵Gut Infections,
🌵Low Blood Pressure.
For nearly seven years, medicines became a part of my daily life. Those years were the darkest phase of my life. There were times when I was being only on sedatives when I had Panic attacks. Time to time I was hospitalised.
The Turning Point
One fine day, my sister asked one of the most renowned doctors in our state when I was visiting for consultation,
“Is there any permanent solution for these condition?”
His answer was simple.
“No, She will have to remain on medication for the rest of her life.”
Those words shattered me.
But they also awakened something inside me.
I asked myself,
“Is this really how my story will go?”
Deep within, I knew I was a fighter. I refused to believe that my body was my destiny.
And I decided to do absolutely anything to change my condition. And that’s how yoga entered my life.
And slowly…
everything began to change.
The Healing Power of Yoga
Yoga was never just about stretching or exercise.
Yoga is a complete way of living.
🤸Through Asana, I rebuilt physical strength.
🧘♀️Through conscious Breathing and Meditation, I calmed a restless mind.
🍉Through Yogic food principles, I learned not only what to eat, but how, when, and what to eat.
📖Through the ancient scriptures, I discovered something even more powerful—I learned how my thoughts shape my life and building faith.
I began transforming my vichar dhara (thought patterns), my emotions, my habits, and everything I consumed—not just through food, but through my senses, my environment, and my relationships.
For the first time, I wasn’t just treating symptoms.
I was transforming the root.
The healing wasn’t overnight.
It took patience.
Discipline.
Practice.
And faith.
Step by step, my body recovered.
My confidence returned.
The fear that once controlled me slowly disappeared.
Today, I have been medicine-free for years. The one who could not traveled even 5km, travels thousands of kms alone.
Ironically, many of the people who once doubted or dismissed me now appreciate and encourage me.
But yoga taught me something far greater than success.
Yoga taught me, Not to build my identity on either praise or criticism.
Because both come and go.
Real freedom begins when your peace no longer depends on other people’s opinions.
A Message of Hope and Transformation
Looking back, I don’t feel that I found yoga.
I feel Yoga found me—through grace, through service, and through the deepest struggle of my life.
Today, my purpose is simple.
If someone is silently fighting anxiety…
If someone believes their health can never improve…
If someone has lost confidence in themselves…
I want them to know this:
Your present is not your permanent.
The body can heal.
The mind can become peaceful.
Life can transform.
I am not sharing my story because it is extraordinary.
I am sharing it because transformation is possible for ordinary people who choose an extraordinary path.
That path, for me, is Yoga.
And perhaps…
it can become yours too.
Are you ready to experience what this sacred science has offered humanity for thousands of years?
Now, Welcome to the journey of Yoga.
अथ योगानुशासनम्
(As Sage Patanjali has rightly mentioned, You have experienced everything, Now begins the disciplined path of Yoga).
Namaste 🙏
